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The Sound of Staying: What I Carried Home from Ukraine

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There is a moment each morning in Lviv that stays with me. At exactly 9:00 a.m., everything shifts. Not stops, just deepens. A low, steady tone begins to echo through the streets. It’s not quite a siren, not quite a bell. More like a pulse. A remembering. For one minute, the country collectively pauses. And then the national anthem rises.

The first time I heard it, I didn’t fully understand what was happening. But I felt it deep in my chest. That rhythmic, steady beat moving through my body like a second heartbeat.

Grief.

Defiance.

Remembrance.

All at once.

Blessed Are Those Who Mourn…

Macon told me about a book he had read, The Beatitudes and Terror. I didn’t read it until I got home, but I think in some ways, I was already inside it. Because here, the Beatitudes are not abstract. They are lived. You see them in the quiet strength of students who come to class carrying stories they don’t fully tell. In the way grief is not something they visit, but something they live alongside.

Blessed are those who mourn.

Not someday.

Now.

A Conversation I Can’t Shake

One morning, before class, I met with a student at a small coffee shop just across from the seminary. It was early. The city was just beginning to wake up. There was the soft clinking of cups, the smell of strong coffee, and that quiet hum of conversation that feels almost sacred in its ordinariness.

She sat across from me, hands wrapped around her cup and then, gently, she began to share.Not dramatically. Not all at once. Just honestly. Pieces of her story. The weight she’s been carrying. The questions she doesn’t have answers to. The exhaustion that doesn’t go away with sleep. nd as she spoke, I found myself noticing something familiar, not just in her words, but in her body.

The subtle tension. The scanning. The way her nervous system stayed just slightly on alert, even in a safe space.

Trauma has a language and I recognized it.

So we slowed it down. We talked about what her body was doing, not as a problem, but as protection.

We named the responses:

  • This is your nervous system trying to keep you safe.
  • This isn’t weakness. This is adaptation.

And I watched something shift, not a full resolution, and not a dramatic breakthrough. Just a softening. A breath that went a little deeper. A moment where she wasn’t alone inside her own experience anymore.

And I thought to myself: This is the work.

Trauma, Faith, and the Body That Remembers

I came to teach about trauma and about how the brain and nervous system respond to overwhelming experiences. About why grief doesn’t follow a timeline. About why the body holds what words cannot.

And they leaned in because this isn’t theoretical here. It’s lived.

We talked about pendulation, titration, and how healing happens in small, manageable moments, not all at once.

And again and again, I found myself saying:

“You are not broken. Your body is doing exactly what it was designed to do.”

And you could feel it land.

The Church That Knows Its Mission

If I could describe the Church here in one phrase, it would be this: They know why they are here.

There is a clarity that comes when everything unnecessary falls away.

I saw it in:

  • students preparing to sit with trauma they cannot fix
  • leaders building care in the middle of uncertainty
  • worship that feels less like performance and more like offering

And it quietly asks something of me:

What would it look like to live this clearly at home?

Beauty That Refuses to Disappear

And still there is beauty. Chestnut trees beginning to bloom along the walk to the seminary. Cappuccinos made with care at Papa Joe’s. Laughter echoing in the hallways between classes. Sunlight stretching across cobblestone streets.

It doesn’t erase the pain but it stands beside it, faithfully.

Faith That Stays

There is a kind of faith that tries to explain suffering and there is a kind that stays. Ukraine is teaching me about the second kind. The kind that doesn’t rush to answers, that makes room for grief, and that trusts that presence matters.

What I’m Carrying Home

I didn’t come home with neat conclusions but I came home changed.

I’m carrying:

  • a deeper trust in the wisdom of the body
  • a clearer understanding of resilience
  • a quieter, steadier vision of faith

And a question that lingers:

What does it look like to stay present to what matters most when life feels comfortable again?

The Sound I Didn’t Expect to Carry

On my last morning, everything was packed. Somehow, the suitcases closed, though I was still holding extra bags filled with gifts pressed into my hands by students, faculty, friends. Small tokens that somehow carried so much more than their weight.

I stepped out of the hotel and began the walk. The wheels of my suitcase caught the cobblestones immediately. That familiar, uneven rhythm. Loud. Unignorable. Clattering behind me as I made my way back to the seminary one last time.

And with every step, I became aware of something I hadn’t let myself fully feel yet:

I was leaving.

The city was just waking up, cool air, soft light, sidewalk sweepers moving along their paths as if tending something sacred. Life continuing, as it always does.

And there I was being pulled forward by the weight of what I was carrying. Not just in my hands, but in my body and in my heart.

The conversations.

The stories.

The resilience.

The grief.

The faith.

The sound of those wheels on the cobblestone felt like a kind of translation. A physical reminder that some things don’t leave quietly. They echo.

Even now, back home, far from Lviv, far from that street, I can still hear it. That uneven, persistent rhythm.

A quiet invitation:

To remember.

To stay.

To live awake.

Good Friday: The Love That Stayed

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This morning felt quieter than usual.

Not silent, there were still the small sounds of life unfolding, but quieter in a way that felt intentional, as if the day itself was holding its breath. The light came in softer, filtered through the window in that early way that doesn’t rush. I wrapped my hands around a warm mug and just sat for a moment longer than I normally would.

It’s Good Friday.

And something in me knows this isn’t a day to move quickly.

I’ve been thinking about how easily we move past this day. We know what’s coming. We know the ending. Resurrection is already waiting on the other side.

But today asks something different of us. It asks us to stay with the weight of it, with the ache., and with the kind of love that doesn’t rush to relief.

Because when you slow the story down, really slow it down, you begin to notice things.

The loneliness of it. The way Jesus was misunderstood, even by those closest to Him. The way the crowd turned. The way injustice unfolded in plain sight, unchecked and uncorrected.

The physical suffering is there, of course.

But so is the emotional pain of betrayal, abandonment, and humiliation.

And He didn’t step out of it. He stayed.

There’s a moment in the story that always catches me. He could have stopped it. At any point, He could have stepped away from the pain, from the cross, from the slow unraveling of His own body and breath.

But He didn’t.

Not because He was powerless, but because He was choosing something greater than relief.

He was choosing love.

And not the kind of love we’re used to, not love that waits until someone is worthy, withdraws when it’s not returned, or protects itself at all costs.

This is a love that moves toward the broken places. A love that enters into suffering rather than avoiding it. A love that sees the full reality of who we are, every hidden place, every wound, every way we’ve learned to survive and doesn’t turn away.

I think, for many of us, this is where it gets tender. Because if we’re honest, this kind of love can feel unfamiliar.

We’ve learned to brace ourselves. To earn love. To anticipate distance when we’re not at our best.

But Good Friday quietly interrupts that story. It tells us that God did not wait for us to become whole before drawing near. He came close in the middle of our humanity, in the middle of our fear, n the middle of our failure, and in the middle of our not-enoughness.

And maybe what undoes me most is this:

He knew.

He knew the cost.
He knew the pain.
He knew the weight of what He was choosing.

And He stayed anyway.

There is something deeply personal about that. Not abstract. Not distant. But intimate in a way that reaches into the places we often try to hide.

The cross is not just a moment in history. It is a declaration. That there is no depth of suffering, no complexity of story, no part of you that is too much that will cause God to turn away.

So today, I’m not rushing. I’m letting the quiet do its work. I’m letting the story unfold slowly, even the hard parts. I’m noticing where I want to skip ahead and gently choosing to stay instead.

Because Good Friday is not just about what was done. It’s about what was revealed.

A love that does not leave when things get hard.
A love that does not withdraw in the face of brokenness.
A love that stays.

And maybe the invitation today is simple. Not to fix anything, prove anything, or rush toward resolution.

But to sit, even for a few moments, and let yourself be seen by that kind of love. The kind that knew. The kind that chose. The kind that stayed.

Even now.

The Small Graces of an Early Tennessee Spring

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There are seasons when gratitude feels like something you must search for. And then there are weeks like this one in Middle Tennessee, when it seems to be rising quietly from everywhere.

This morning I stepped out onto the back porch with my coffee, and the air held that particular softness that only comes when winter finally loosens its grip. Not the thick humidity of summer. Not the sharp chill of January. Just that gentle, almost hesitant warmth that says, spring is on its way.

All around the neighborhood the trees are beginning to stir.

The Bradford pear trees are the first to announce the change, bursting into bright white blossoms before their leaves even arrive, like scattered clouds caught in the branches. They are one of the earliest bloomers each year, their flowers appearing suddenly and dramatically across Tennessee landscapes as winter fades.

Drive down almost any road this week and you’ll see them, whole streets dusted with white.

The redbuds are beginning to blush purple along the edges of the woods. The maples are pushing out tiny red buds. And if you look closely, the bare gray limbs that felt so lifeless just a few weeks ago now hold the faintest haze of green.

It is that quiet miracle that happens every year and somehow still surprises me.

And as I sat there this morning, I realized how many things I am grateful for in this particular season of life.

I’m grateful that Lowell is healing well. There is a deep kind of relief that comes when someone you love comes through a medical scare and begins to mend. Healing has a quiet rhythm to it, slower than we wish sometimes, but steady.

I’m grateful for Macon. For his steadiness. For the way he carries things calmly when life gets complicated. For his loyalty, his patience, and that quiet strength that doesn’t make a lot of noise but somehow holds everything together.

I’m grateful for simple days that hold no great drama. Today was one of those, just a good day of shopping, moving through errands without hurry, and the kind of ordinary day that reminds you life doesn’t have to be extraordinary to be good.

I’m grateful for the warmer weather this past week. For windows cracked open. For sunlight lingering a little longer in the evenings. For the way the light falls across the patio furniture that sat unused all winter.

That back porch and patio have become small sanctuaries again. A place for coffee in the morning. A place for quiet conversations in the evening. A place where the birds seem to hold committee meetings in the trees while the neighborhood dogs offer their occasional commentary.

Spring in Middle Tennessee doesn’t arrive all at once. It unfolds. First the light changes. Then the air softens. Then one morning you realize the trees are waking up.

And if you’re paying attention, gratitude seems to bloom right alongside them.

Not because life is perfect. But because grace often arrives in the small, ordinary moments — the ones we might miss if we aren’t looking.

A healing body.
A steady husband.
A warm afternoon.
White blossoms on the roadside.
Coffee on the porch.

Sometimes that is more than enough.

A Friday Evening Practice of Gratitude

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Friday evenings have a way of inviting honesty. The pace slows just enough for the week to catch up with us, not as a list of tasks completed, but as moments lived. Tonight, gratitude feels less like a spiritual discipline and more like a gentle noticing.

I’m grateful for a full week of meaningful work. For clients who trusted me with their stories and their nervous systems. For conversations that mattered, not because they were dramatic, but because they were real. For the quiet privilege of sitting with suffering and resilience side by side, and for the reminder (again) that healing is rarely loud or flashy. It’s steady. Faithful. Human.

I’m grateful for meetings that were grounding rather than draining. For collaborative spaces where wisdom was shared, not postured. For colleagues and friends whose integrity is felt as much as it is spoken and people who don’t require performance, only presence. Steady might be the better word here. Solid, yes, but also rooted. The kind of relationships that hold when the wind picks up.

I’m grateful for coffee with like-minded people and those sacred little windows of connection where ideas breathe and souls exhale. For sitting across from someone who understands both the clinical language of trauma and the spiritual language of hope and knows when to let silence do the talking. These moments remind me that loneliness isn’t cured by crowds, but by attunement.

I’m grateful for the gift of seeing people in person again such as friends from out of town whose faces I’ve known mostly through screens lately. There’s something holy about proximity. About laughter landing in the same space. About shared space and unhurried conversation that no bandwidth can replicate.

I’m grateful for warm weather and a body that is cooperating today. For health that allows me to travel, teach, listen, write, and still have enough left to enjoy the evening. For the quiet miracle of stamina in this season of life and the grace to honor my limits without shame.

And tonight, I’m especially grateful for quiet time on the patio with Macon. A fire glowing low. The week loosening its grip. No agenda beyond being together. These are the moments that re-anchor me – the small liturgies of marriage, companionship, and rest that preach the gospel without words.

Scripture tells us to “give thanks in all circumstances,” not because everything is good, but because God is present in all of it. Gratitude doesn’t deny the weight of the world or the grief, or the complexity. It simply refuses to let those things have the final word.

So tonight, my prayer is simple: Thank You.
For work that has meaning.
For people who are safe.
For conversations that nourish rather than numb.
For warmth, health, love, and a fire that reminds me light still gathers when evening comes.

This is enough for today. And tonight, that feels like grace.

When Suffering Meets Kindness: The Sacred Space Between Frankl and Fred Rogers

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Viktor Frankl once wrote, “In some ways suffering ceases to be suffering at the moment it finds a meaning.” Fred Rogers reminded us, “Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.”

At first glance, their words come from different worlds: one forged in the fires of a concentration camp, the other spoken softly through a television set to generations of children.
And yet, both point to a sacred truth: in the midst of suffering, meaning and mercy are born when love takes shape in human form.

Frankl’s psychology teaches us that pain without purpose can crush the soul, but pain seen through the lens of meaning can refine it. We cannot always choose our suffering, but we can choose our response: to orient ourselves toward love, service, or hope.

Mr. Rogers’s theology of kindness shows what that choice can look like in daily life. When the world trembles, he said, “look for the helpers.” Look for the hands that hold, the hearts that listen, the quiet ones who refuse to turn away.

When we hold both men’s wisdom together, a fuller picture of faith emerges:

Suffering becomes a classroom for compassion. Our wounds awaken us to the pain of others and invite us to respond.

Helping becomes holy work. Each act of care participates in God’s redemptive movement through the world.

Meaning grows in relationship. We discover purpose not by escaping pain, but by walking through it together.

In this light, Frankl and Rogers are not opposites but partners in the same gospel. One calls us to find meaning within; the other calls us to express it outwardly. Together they whisper: You are never powerless. Even in the darkest night, you can choose love.

So when the headlines ache and your own heart trembles, pause and ask:
Where might God be inviting me to create meaning?
Whose suffering might I quietly hold, or gently lighten?

Because every time you choose to love in the face of pain, you fulfill both men’s vision: transforming suffering into service, and despair into the language of hope.

The Days We Don’t Count

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We live like we have time.

We scroll, we schedule, we save. We put off the hard conversations and shelve the dreams for “someday” as if someday is a guaranteed destination. But then the news breaks. A name we recognize. A story cut short. A headline that shakes us just enough to remember: we don’t know which day will be our last.

This week, the loss of Malcolm-Jamal Warner hit hard for many. He wasn’t just an actor. He was a familiar presence, a face we grew up with. And now he’s gone — too soon, too suddenly. And it makes us stop and ask: Am I living the life I want to be remembered for? Am I loving the way I was created to love?

The Psalmist wrote, “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom” (Psalm 90:12). Not to scare us into frenzy. Not to provoke panic. But to re-center us in wisdom — the kind of wisdom that sees clearly what really matters.

Because the truth is, we don’t have forever.

But we do have today.

And today is where love becomes action. Where grace becomes visible. Where values turn into decisions. Where faith walks, not just talks.

We may not get to choose the length of our days but we absolutely get to choose their substance. Will we hoard our energy, time, and resources for our own comfort, or will we pour it out to make this world a little softer, a little safer, a little more just? Will we stay numbed and distracted, or will we wake up to the sacred responsibility we hold: to be a light in the lives of others?

God never promised us a long life. He promised us eternal life. And between now and then, He’s given us a mission that’s rooted not in fear of the end, but in love for the present.

So let’s show up for it.

Let’s stop assuming there will always be more time.
Let’s forgive faster, listen longer, reach wider.
Let’s put down our pride, pick up our cross, and serve somebody.
Let’s make peace with our limitations, and use what we do have — our words, our presence, our hands — to bring healing.

Let our legacy be this: that we did not waste the time we were given.

Because while we don’t know how many days we’ll get, we do know what we’re here for:

To love God.
To love people.
To make the broken places a little more whole.

Even if the world forgets our name, may they remember our impact.

One day at a time. One act of love at a time.

I’m Tired, Lord — But Mostly I’m Tired of People Being Ugly

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There’s a line from a movie that echoes in my soul lately:
“I’m tired, boss… tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world every day… there’s too much of it. It’s like pieces of glass in my head all the time.”

Can I confess something to you, friend?
I’m tired too.

Not just the “need-more-sleep” kind of tired. But soul-tired. Tired in my bones.
Tired of watching people speak with venom instead of care.
Tired of injustice wrapped in religious language.
Tired of cruelty masquerading as boldness.
Tired of the ache I see in the eyes of the kind-hearted who keep getting trampled by the sharp edges of other people’s pride.

But mostly? I’m tired of people being ugly.
Not ugly in appearance. Ugly in action.
Ugly in the way they dismiss, demean, and divide.
Ugly in how they scapegoat the vulnerable to feel powerful.

Scripture tells us that Jesus wept over Jerusalem, not because He was weak, but because He saw the hardness of people’s hearts.
He saw religious leaders burden the people with law but withhold mercy (Matthew 23:4).
He saw the temple turned into a market.
He saw the woman at the well judged and discarded.
He saw lepers outcast, children silenced, and foreigners feared.

And He didn’t just weep.
He healed.
He welcomed.
He restored.

He kept showing up with kindness anyway.

Maybe you’re reading this today and you feel it, too. The ache. The exhaustion.
You’re trying to be light in a world that seems to prefer shadows.
You’re offering dignity in spaces that reward domination.
You’re leading with grace and watching others lead with greed.

And you wonder: is it worth it?
Is being kind in a cruel world still powerful?

Beloved, hear me: Yes.
It is holy resistance.

Every act of kindness is a refusal to let darkness win.
Every time you choose empathy over ego, you echo the heart of Christ.
Every gentle word, every patient pause, every bridge you build, it matters.

Galatians 6:9 reminds us:

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”

That verse doesn’t ignore our weariness; it acknowledges it.
Doing good will wear on you. It’s costly. But it’s also kingdom-building.

So if today you’re tired, take a breath.
Cry if you need to. Step back. Be held by the One who never wearies.

And then? When you’re ready?

Let’s get back to the holy work of being kind in a world that often isn’t.
Let’s be people of gentleness in a culture of outrage.
Let’s be living, breathing reminders that God’s love is still present, even here. Even now.

Because ugliness may be loud, but kindness is still louder in the Kingdom of God.

And we? We were made for such a time as this.

Gratitude at the End of a Purpose-Filled Week

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It’s the kind of tired that settles deep, not just in your bones, but in your spirit. The kind of tired that follows a week full of pouring out, showing up, making decisions, holding space, and carrying burdens that aren’t always your own. It’s been a long week… but it hasn’t been wasted.

This is the sacred tension: exhaustion and gratitude holding hands.

Because while your body might ache and your mind may crave quiet, your heart knows something beautiful, this week mattered. The conversations, the care, the hidden sacrifices, the unseen prayers, the hard things you did anyway—they were seeds sown with purpose.

And so, we pause—not just to rest, but to give thanks.

Not just for the strength to get through, but for the privilege of being part of something bigger than ourselves. For the grace that met us in early mornings and late nights. For the people we served, the ones who surprised us, the laughter that snuck in when we needed it most, and the reminders that we are never alone.

Scripture reminds us: “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.” (Colossians 3:23)

That changes everything.

It means the spreadsheet wasn’t just a task. It was stewardship. The counseling session wasn’t just a job. It was holy ground. The meal you delivered, the hug you offered, the weary smile you gave anyway; those were offerings. Worship, in motion.

So yes, you’re tired. But let that tired be evidence of a life poured out with intention.

And as you exhale, may gratitude be your companion not just for what was accomplished, but for the One who walked with you through it all.

Take a breath. Say thank you. And let that be enough for today.

You did well, friend.

Safe, But Not Settled: Holding Heartache and Hope Across Borders

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This morning I woke up in a place where my power works, where sirens are rare, and where safety is so constant I forget to notice it. My coffee brewed without interruption. My phone didn’t buzz with emergency alerts. The people I love most are accounted for, safe and sleeping peacefully under a quiet sky. And yet—my heart is not settled.

Just days ago, I stood alongside students, friends, and fellow counselors in Ukraine—people whose lives are marked by bravery, burden, and a fierce commitment to hope. Their resilience humbles me. Their vulnerability invites me. Their suffering unsettles me in the most holy of ways.

And then, I come home. To safety. To abundance. To ease.

It’s a disorienting thing to hold two realities at once. To scroll the news and see missile attacks near where I just stood… while sitting in a quiet living room where my biggest decision is what to make for dinner. There is an ache in this returning. A tension in being safe while others remain in danger.

Sometimes I feel like I’m cheating grief by being far away.

But I am reminded—again and again—that presence is not limited by geography. That prayer is not weakened by miles. That love stretches farther than the reach of war.

Jesus Himself wept over Jerusalem, grieving a people He longed to gather under His wings like a mother hen gathers her chicks (Luke 13:34). He didn’t ignore the pain of a place just because He wasn’t in it. He entered it—with compassion, with truth, and with unwavering nearness.

So today, I choose to stay tender. I choose not to grow numb just because I am safe. I choose to carry the names and faces of my Ukrainian brothers and sisters into my prayers, my advocacy, and my daily decisions. I choose to live with open hands, asking God how I can keep showing up—even from afar.

There is no easy way to carry this tension. But perhaps we aren’t meant to resolve it. Perhaps we are simply meant to feel it—to let it soften us, deepen us, and move us toward love.

“For if one part suffers, every part suffers with it…” (1 Corinthians 12:26). And if one part heals, we all move a step closer to wholeness.

I am safe, but I am not indifferent.

I am home, but I am not done.

And though my feet may be here, part of my heart still beats on Ukrainian soil—and always will.

From Sirens to Silence: Returning from War-Torn Ukraine to the Safety of Home

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There’s a holy kind of disorientation that comes when you leave a war zone and step back into peace.

In Ukraine, the soundscape is unforgettable. It’s not just the sirens—though those pierce your chest like a cold wind—but the in-between silence that follows them. The kind of quiet that feels like holding your breath. The kind of quiet that wonders, “Will it come here next?” And when the silence is broken, it’s by news of another strike, another village leveled, another family forever changed.

You learn to move through your day holding invisible weights. Not just your own responsibilities, but the stories of those beside you. Stories of sons on the front lines, of homes destroyed twice, of trauma that doesn’t wait for a break to speak. And yet—there is laughter. There is resilience. There are old women planting tomatoes near the trenches and children playing soccer next to bomb shelters.

Somehow, hope and horror live side by side.

And then, just like that, you’re on a plane back to the United States. You land in a clean, calm airport. No soldiers, no checkpoints. You stand in line for coffee and no one is scanning the exits. Your bag rolls smoothly over polished tile instead of cobblestone. The barista asks how your day is going.

And you almost forget how to answer.

There’s this peculiar guilt that rises when safety returns too quickly. A feeling that something must be wrong with you for enjoying a warm bed when you know the person you sat across from yesterday might sleeping in a shelter with sandbags for walls. You feel joy at being home—and grief for ever having left. You feel relief—and restlessness. You carry stories that others can’t see, and it makes ordinary life feel… blurry.

I’m learning not to run from that tension.

Because Scripture doesn’t tell us to choose between joy or sorrow. It invites us to hold both. “Rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep.” (Romans 12:15)

That’s what Jesus did. He wept at the tomb of Lazarus even though He knew resurrection was coming. He sat with the suffering and also multiplied bread at a wedding feast. He knew how to live between heaven and heartbreak.

So I’m asking myself: how do I live faithfully in between?

Here’s what I’m finding:

I breathe deeper here. Not with guilt, but with gratitude—and remembrance. Every quiet night’s sleep is a gift. Every dinner shared around a peaceful table is holy ground. I don’t want to forget that.

I keep my heart soft. I don’t numb out or move on. I name their names when I pray. I tell their stories when I speak. I don’t let convenience steal my compassion.

I let the discomfort teach me. The pull between two worlds is not a flaw—it’s an invitation. It reminds me that I belong to a global body, and that the peace I enjoy should fuel my advocacy, not silence it.

I practice presence. Not performative urgency. Not performative guilt. But true presence. I listen when someone tells their story. I show up for people who are tired. I stay grounded in what’s real, even when it hurts.

Most of all, I trust that God is near.

Near to the weary pastor still pastoring in a war zone.
Near to the widow who still sets out two plates.
Near to the child coloring in a basement lit by a generator.
And near to me, as I return to a quiet home and try to keep my heart from closing.

It’s tempting to believe that faith means we must always feel strong. But I’m learning faith can look like tears. Like trembling hands still reaching out. Like choosing to stay tender when it would be easier to forget.

This world is broken in ways that are too heavy for words. But the kingdom of God is here, too—in the resilience of those who remain, in the compassion of those who return, in the breath that fills our lungs even after sirens.

So I will rest. And I will remember. And I will return—whether in body or in prayer or in voice—again and again.

Because love doesn’t look away.

And neither will I.