I am here in Ukraine again—walking familiar cobblestone streets beneath wide Lviv skies, hearing the hum of trams and the laughter of children, watching flower stalls open and elderly women selling fresh herbs on street corners. The city is alive. It pulses with color, scent, and sound.
And yet, I carry the weight of war in my chest.
This land holds both the ache and the resilience of its people. There is trauma here that lingers in the nervous system of the nation—stories that are not mine to tell, but that I bear witness to with reverence. And still, in the very same breath, there is joy. There is worship. There is laughter over coffee. There are songs sung loudly and prayers whispered in corners. Somehow, all of it lives here together.
I find myself holding deep contrasts—safety and threat, beauty and brokenness, courage and weariness, faith and unanswered questions. One moment I am watching golden light filter through chestnut trees during our morning walk, and the next I am sitting in a room listening to someone describe the horror of displacement and fear.
It would be easier, I suppose, if the world were simple. If there were clear lines between good and bad, safe and dangerous, holy and profane. But it isn’t. The real world—the one Jesus entered—is layered and complex, filled with both pain and hope, sometimes in the same story. Sometimes in the same breath.
And I believe that’s exactly where Christ meets us.
When I walk these streets, I think of Psalm 34:18—“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Not just as a theological truth, but as something I see unfolding in front of me. God is not distant from this place or its pain. He is right here, in the middle of it—closer than breath.
So I carry it all. I don’t rush to resolve the tension. I let myself feel the sting of it and the strange, holy ache that comes when sorrow and beauty touch. And I keep coming back to the table—to listen, to learn, to offer what I can.
Jesus, too, held all the contrasts. Fully God and fully man. Lamb and Lion. He walked among the grieving and fed the hungry, healed the sick and wept over the city. He didn’t avoid the pain—He entered into it, with love.
And so I will do the same. I will keep showing up, even when I don’t have answers. I will keep honoring both the grief and the strength I see. I will hold the contrasts—not because I am strong enough, but because Christ is.
And in the holding, I am held.